Breakup

Jul. 3rd, 2006 05:58 pm
johncoxon: (Breakup)
Jess may not reply because she appears to be offline. And guess what, so's my relationship. I honestly thought I had something really special and I was so, so happy with everything - life, school, friends, my part of fandom, etc. I will deliberately avoid filling my LiveJournal with crap about how I'm feeling - I know that it's not going to be terribly interesting to anybody who reads my LiveJournal, and I do try and make it at least partly interesting (it's a journal, it's not going to be brilliant now, is it?).

The upshot is that I feel crap. This is normal, it's how everybody feels. She broke up with me because she's worried that she's underachieving at school, and I can understand why she has. I will not tolerate any negative feelings towards her, she did what she did because she had to, and I can honestly understand that. I'm not feeling stilted, or neglected, or rejected. I am feeling crap because I miss her, not because I hate her, and I know that I will never hate her, as long as I live. She's never been anything but wonderful to me, full stop.

That doesn't stop me feeling crap, however, and it doesn't stop me wanting to tear my heart out to stop myself crying a great deal. If you want to talk to me (eek!) about how I'm feeling, or if you generally want to show an interest and/or caring nature, then look up my contact details (IM details freely available, phone numbers available through a link, if you can't see the phone numbers comment and I might add you to the filter) on my userinfo.

I'll muddle through. I don't know how long, or how easily, but I will do it. Damn straight, reverend.


This means I have to change my default userpic, delete images from my phone, etc. How come it's the mundane things that hit you in the nuts repeatedly?
johncoxon: (Hellblazer #215)
On Saturday, my half-brother David and his girlfriend Beccy came over to stay the weekend. This was good, as I hadn't seen David for absolutely yonks and I've never met Beccy, but did have the unfortunate side-effect that I had to miss the ZZ9 Plural Z Alpha committee meeting that was scheduled for the same day (sorry guys...).

David, Beccy, Mum and I all went into town for different reasons - I wanted to get my copy of the Serenity RPG Game Master's Screen from the shop in Rivergate, David and Beccy wanted to explore the city (it didn't take them very long but I'm pretty sure all they did was wander around the cathedral for a while before heading to a coffee shop) and Mum wanted to meet up with a friend of hers (George wanted mum to buy him paint from the dreaded Games Workshop, which she very kindly agreed to do).

Eventually, after we'd all done what we wanted to do, we met up with mum in a coffee shop with her friend and after that we drifted home. It was quite a fun morning/afternoon activity. I told David about my obsession with The Mighty Boosh and as Beccy had watched bits of it she suggested we sit down and watch a couple of episodes in the afternoon, to which David and I agreed. We watched some, and David seemed to quite enjoy it (he has a similar sense of humour to mine).

That evening we went out for dinner, to the pub (I can't remember what it's called but it's on the way from Stamford to Peterborough). I had a very nice set of barbecued pork ribs with a couple of pints of some very nice beer, followed up by a very nice pudding (I have a feeling it was something like dark chocolate torte but I can't quite remember!). It was great fun.

The next day we went to Burghley Sculpture Park, which led to several extremely amusing videos of David on my phone and some amusing videos and pictures of the sculptures too. It was great fun and I enjoyed myself a great deal. Unfortunately, too soon after that, it was time for David and Beccy to vamoose, and so they left us to our own devices. It was nice to see him again though!


Monday and Tuesday were almost entirely uneventful. There was nothing much that happened and there's nothing much to say about them.


Wednesday was the day that Jess [livejournal.com profile] xxjccjccxx arrived again, and also the day of a driving lesson (we did emergency stops and it was fun). Jess and I went to a gig at the Met Lounge in the evening, which featured Pure (the band for which Tom [livejournal.com profile] manicguitarist plays bass guitar). We were lucky that they were on first, as although they are an excellent band the other bands playing really, really aren't. We saw Jason [livejournal.com profile] jimmyalbon and Benedict there and after the Pure part of the gig, we left with them to go to Pizza House, to eat garlic bread, drink beer and be merry. This proved to be a successful and wise move, as we really enjoyed ourselves before Dad picked Jess and me up.


Thursday was the day of the trip to London! Jess, Mum, George and I piled onto a train heading to London (WAGN are now FirstCapitalConnect, which is a really stupid name) and we arrived at London King's Cross station at 1005 before catching the tube to Camden Town - so we probably got to Camden by around 1030. What we unfortunately didn't realise is that with the exception of the food stalls and a fair few of the regular stalls, about half of the stalls don't actually bother to open until midday, meaning that some of the stuff we could have looked at was shut. Having said that, Jess and I found plenty of stalls to keep us occupied for an hour and a half, including my purchase of a very nice necklace (it's a cross carved out of stone on a black stringy type thing, and I like it a lot). Jess and I bought tacos, Moroccan food, donuts and Chinese food before we all got onto the tube to go to the Hammersmith (via King's Cross).

This is the part of the story which I quite like, since it involves Deeply Cool Stuff happening. We went to the Lyric Hammersmith theatre to see the matinee performance of The Wolves In The Walls, which is based upon the children's novel written by Neil Gaiman and illustrated by Dave McKean. Neil's been involved in the production since it was first suggested and so it has had a lot of input by him over the course of its preparation. I thought it was alright. It is aimed at small children - "Anybody over the age of seven who's not a scaredy-cat" - and although it tries to have something in there for everyone it is better for small children than big children like me, I think. Some parts were extremely cleverly done and I did laugh out loud a couple of times but the story was extremely simple (to be expected, I suppose) which I felt detracted from the production, but doubtless made it better to those small children I mentioned earlier.

After the performance Neil was in a seperate part of the theatre doing a Q&A which started around ten minutes after the end of the "musical pandemonium" (as the production is billed). It was very cool to see him, as Jess and I were on the front row having gone straight there, and it was interesting to see his responses to the questions (he is very suspicious of allegory in books, as he feels that good writing should have more than one meaning and not be tied to just one theme, for example). This was really cool and things, but afterwards he sat at a small table in the foyer-cum-cafe-cum-shop outside the theatre and started signing books, at which point I managed to get his autograph, a picture taken with him and asked him a question (I asked him what he thought of the current comic adaptation of his book, Neverwhere. He said that it wasn't how he would have done it, but he wasn't doing it, so that was OK). This was undoubtedly the best part of the whole day.

After we'd been to the Lyric, we took the tube back to King's Cross then got the train back to Peterborough, where we ordered in pizza to fill the niggling little holes in our stomachs.


Friday was Good Friday, as you should all know by looking at your calendars! Mum, Dad, Jess and I went into Stamford to have a look at the market there - we went to a coffee shop and ordered hot chocolate. After that, we went to Tesco, where I bought Mario Kart DS (it's very good) and persuaded my parents to buy Ben & Jerry's icecream before we then went home and ate lunch. Jess had to go early that afternoon, which was a shame as I enjoy being with her, her being my girlfriend and all. After she'd gone home, my aunts and grandparents (on Dad's side) arrived to stay over Easter and I had to go to work.


Then, today, on Easter Saturday, members of my extended family and I went into town. We all went in for different reasons, and only I went to purchase The Sandman: Season Of Mists, which is bloody brilliant. I also have a copy of Howard The Duck and a comic book collector's box waiting for me next time I go in to town. After coming back from town we ate lunch. At 1915 sharp I went to the sitting room to watch the latest episode of Doctor Who, the first in the second of the new series. I was actually slightly disappointed, the whole thing was slightly anti-climatic IMHO and I felt that the whole Cassandra/there's something sinister happening! could have been cleverly set up amid suspense and scarifying rather than just "hi! It's me again!" The Doctor would have worked out it wasn't Rose the moment she kissed him rather than until she wasn't caring about the people in the testing facility, also, and the voice he would not have put down to high jinks. He should've noticed something before hitting intensive care, especially since she suddenly seemed to have a grand knowledge of computers in the year 5000023. These are minor gripes, but since The Christmas Invasion was so good, I was expecting the next episode to be just as good. I am really, really looking forward to the Torchwood spinoff, since I love the episodes set in a military-Earth context, for some reason. After Doctor Who, we then went to a Chinese restaurant for tea which was also very nice.


I hope you're all enjoying your Easter Holidays, and I might post one more holiday post before the end of the holidays, maybe.
johncoxon: (V For Vendetta)
Well, on Friday night, Callum [livejournal.com profile] callum_wright, Liam, Zoe and I went out for the evening in two parts. The first part was to go and see the film V For Vendetta.

Movie/comic spoilers follow )

And then, afterwards, we went to the Met Lounge (I walked, they took a taxi. I beat them, which is cool). Pure were playing, and they were brilliant, and I loved them. So much more energy than the Locura EP, the songs have so much more intensity. The sofas at the back of the Met were vibrating, it was brilliant.


At the moment, Jess is over, and we're having fun. It's all good. If anybody wants to hang with us today, comment/e-mail/text. Cheers!

PSP & SFX

Mar. 4th, 2006 08:06 pm
johncoxon: (V For Vendetta)
I saw the latest PSP advertisements today. For those who haven't seen them, one says, "Your girlfriend's white bits here," and the other says, "Scenes of a violent and sexual nature here." Now, I may be being dense, but it seems to me that these advertisements will only appeal to teenage males and will alienate the rest of the British population (adults, especially women). Surely the teenage boys are those who already have a PSP and the target audience should be those people the advertisement is successfully alienating? Once again, Sony have missed the obvious whilst it's dancing in front of them wearing a T-shirt saying, "Make more profit NOW!"

On a completely unrelated note, today I bought the first volume of Y: The Last Man and the latest issue of SFX has an article on V For Vendetta, an interview with Nathan Fillion and a review of the DVD of Serenity, as well as a free pack of X-Men 3 playing cards. I recommend both.

Jess is very gorgeous, by the way, and she's also completely awesome. And so sexy! :-)
johncoxon: (Default)
Well, my sore throat is pretty much gone, an odd twinge here and there but nothing much. My ulcer's also nearly gone and if it's not gone tomorrow it will be on Saturday, I reckon. My nose is letting me breathe through it again and my head is feeling fine. My cough has calmed down, I'm still hacking every now and then but it's definitely better than it was yesterday. All in all, I'm hopeful that I'll be relatively healthy by the time I see Jess [livejournal.com profile] xxjccjccxx.

Also, Josh [livejournal.com profile] 5m1ffy, you said you'd tell me how to get a free account on Heart Internet, so comment if you feel like telling me. :-)

Oh, did I mention I'm getting broadband next week? 2mb with no d/l limit, it's quite exciting really.

New Stuff

Jan. 29th, 2006 11:51 am
johncoxon: (Go You Big Red Fire Engine)
I've just started reading Consider Phlebas by Iain M. Banks, and it's very good. I'm up to state of play: one at the moment. It's a very different style from that which he uses in The Wasp Factory, though, isn't it? I also watched Series 1 Eps 1-4 of M*A*S*H yesterday, and that's quite funny. I think I can quite happily get into that one. Radar's brilliant, and Hawkeye's cool. I bought more comics again yesterday - Hellblazer #216 looks like it's the beginning of a good arc, and I'm gutted that I'm almost at the end of the Preacher series of TPBs. I'm sure I shall find something to fill the void, though. Finally, my Firefly and Serenity soundtracks arrived, courtesy of Amazon.co.uk, and they're excellent, although I prefer the Firefly soundtrack. There's something more warm about it, I think, it's hard to explain. My shiny Serenity DVD has been pre-ordered, too!


It's now less than six days until I see Jess [livejournal.com profile] xxjccjccxx again and I can't wait. It's going to be awesome.

Jess

Jan. 23rd, 2006 09:13 pm
johncoxon: (Jess (Brown Top))
Jess has a LiveJournal too, now. One may find it at [livejournal.com profile] xxjccjccxx.

Jess is:
  • Attractive.
  • Awesome.
  • Brilliant.
  • Charming.
  • Delightful.
  • Devastatingly beautiful.
  • Exceptional.
  • Fantastic.
  • Fabulous.
  • Gorgeous.
  • Great.
  • Intelligent.
  • Sexy.
  • Spiffing.
  • Wonderful.
...oh, and she's with me. :-D

Jess

Jan. 12th, 2006 07:45 am
johncoxon: (Jess)
Jess is so great.

And my icon, since it's of her, is also great. :-)

The Ball

Jan. 4th, 2006 07:37 am
johncoxon: (Don't Panic)
The King's School Peterborough holds a sixth-form ball every year, which is held in the first half of the spring term. This year it's on the night of Saturday 4th February.

I have a date for the ball. She's very nice...and I suppose I'm sort of going out with her, in fact, which is also very nice. We spend a lot of time texting and on the phone. Only drawback is that she lives in Derby, but it's nothing I can't handle (it's only £12 to go on the train, which is cool, because I make more than that in a week).

I'm going to see her on the 21st and she's staying over (both sets of parents agreed to let her, which is a minor miracle) over the weekend of the 4th/5th February. Which should be good fun.

All in all, it's been a good Christmas holiday. I'm glad I did the Engineering Education Scheme.

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